An Earthling's Journey to Life: 2012-07-01

Samstag, 7. Juli 2012

Day 83: Deconstructing Characters – The Philosopher

For context please read:

When looking back at my life, I see how throughout my studies, especially through meeting new places and new people, I started expanding my view of the world, and at some point I developed this personality of a ‚philosopher’, seeking to understand my existence and my experience.

What I had not considered back then, is that I was in fact developing theories that would VALIDATE my experience/existence, within this completely disregarding the implications that would emanate from my theories.

Since I came across the desteni group and started questioning how I created my beliefs and most of all WHY, I realized that the starting-point of it all has always been one point: that I did not have to change. Now I realize that any world view we develop, is aimed at ‘justifying’ our existence as is.

Some theories I had developed included that the world needs to change, but somehow I hadn’t count myself in, nor had I considered in what practical ways the world needs to change or how such change could come forth.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a personality/character as ‘the philosopher’ in a quest to explain why my experience was what it was – within this in fact projecting all responsibility to my world/environment, never considering that I, too, require a self-responsible direction towards change.

I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to see, realize and understand that my theories as ‘philosopher’ were based on my desire to see a world united and a human race dignified, yet I was projecting the whole point far too far from myself and from common sense practical application, so much so that any theory would become like a utopia, a dream, that could only be accomplished through some miraculous way.

I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to see, realize and understand that going into spirituality and trying to ‘find’ something there, was in fact a continuation of my philosopher’s trip, in fact further and further away from myself, as I gave my responsibility and directive principle away to concepts of ‘divinity’ and ‘salvation’ that would miraculously take place someday, somewhere, somehow.

I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to see, realize and understand that through that character/personality as ‘the philosopher’ I looked at existence in separation, and never consider what outflows, effects and consequences MY actual practical application in every moment has on existence as a whole;

nor did I consider that I was responsible for the experience of myself and that I had in fact played an equal role in the creation of my experience/existence.

I forgive myself that I hadn’t allowed myself to see, realize and understand that I was creating this personality/character to in a way ‘elevate’ myself from the actuality of my reality into a ‘superior’ position from which I could talk about everything without placing myself as part of it all.

Within this I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to deny my self-responsibility and instead to create theories that would ‘validate’ my experience as if it were real, instead of investigating and understanding how I myself was creating my experiences through my own acceptances and allowances, and also through the suppressed fear and ‘inferiority’ which I had attempted to hide from, and to do so I had projected a certain ‘superiority’ just to ‘feel better’ while I deny the actuality of my reality.

I forgive myself that I hadn’t allowed myself to consider that all philosophy has thus far brought no substantial change or evolution within our world, because no philosophy has thus far questioned the system it its entirety – which would include self as equal and one to the system.

I forgive myself that I hadn’t allowed myself to see, realize and understand that the human, which includes me, exists in the image and likeness of the system, and that everything that we see ‘out there’ in fact exists ‘in here’, within ourselves, as ourselves – yet we have separated ourselves to such an extent that we claim this cannot be, and we use the layers of deception and pretense as beliefs, fears and desires that we hide behind to ‘justify’ why we are not responsible.

I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to consider the consequence of my application as ‘philosopher’, wherein I not only held myself within a position of believed ‘superiority’ without actually contributing to a better world, but have at the same time allowed others that ‘agreed’ with me to remain trapped in the same constructs as well, as we have mutually ‘validated’ our ‘purpose’ to each-other, just to not have to deal with the fact that we never actually brought forth practical solutions in self-honesty:

we merely talked and talked and talked our minds out, never in fact questioning the system, refusing to see that the only reason we were able to do so was because we had the money that paid for us to waste our time while feeling ‘good’ about it.

I commit myself to showing the common sense that since no philosophy has thus far brought forth any substantial change toward the betterment of life for all of humanity – then we must have missed something substantial on the way: that we have missed ourselves and our responsibility for life, as life.

I commit myself to showing the common sense that if we do not care for life in fact, care enough to question the current system of exploitation and consider practical ways to change the system to the benefit of LIFE as best for all: then we are not equal to life, we are not life, we are less than life – and yet each one of us that has money in their pocket and food to eat is so preoccupied in the mind with ideas of grandeur and profoundness, trying to be MORE than life.

I commit myself to showing the common sense that self-interest (which manifests in the world as the current system of consumerism where profit is placed before life) is not life, it is merely a survival-system which we in our acceptance of fear and ‘inferiority’ have become, and in order to deny this fact we have projected all kinds of ‘superior’ ideas and created systems and concepts to help us pursue these ideas as if they were real – all the while we trap ourselves in an illusion from which it’s gonna take great effort and self-honesty to break free.

I commit myself to showing the common sense that responsibility is in fact power – and that we only refuse to take responsibility out of fear, and only if the current positions of power allow us some level of ‘freedom’ and ‘profit’ while billions suffer.

I commit myself to showing that we only create philosophies to ‘justify’ or ‘explain’ our OWN point of view, without questioning the system, otherwise all wisdom of the world would already have effected a substantial change toward the betterment of life for all, even within the limitations of this reality.

I commit myself to showing the common sense that even our science is in fact not much more than mere philosophy, since the scientists developing/applying science are equally human beings like you and me, trapped within and as a mind consciousness system that is based in fear, denial, and self-interest and thus fails to include self in every equation to see and realize the responsibility each one and all of us together hold for LIFE.

I commit myself to showing the common sense that science and philosophy look ‘out there’ to find answers, while the real questions and answers are right Here, within ourselves and our world, throughout all our relationships; and that if we do not manage to sort THAT out to the benefit of ALL LIFE, then any progress in science or philosophy is but a sort of mental masturbation, an alternate reality luxury while 2/3 of the world suffer –

2/3 of which any ONE could be you or me, since we are born into this world without choice and our survival and opportunities in life are subject to the conditions of our immediate environment.

I commit myself to showing that the time is here to develop a practical philosophy in the interest of LIFE – a philosophy that will go beyond fear to include ALL life in its considerations; a philosophy that will question all current beliefs and will make sure it is not based on belief or mere ‘wishful thinking’; a philosophy that emerges from the actual understanding of this world and how we came to be what we are here now as humanity on earth, the actual understanding of consequence from which would emerge the solution of how to proceed or what to change in order to no more create such atrocious consequences for life; a philosophy that can be practically applied by anyone and that would be mathematically certain to manifest what is best for ALL life because it has its starting-point in the interest of life as a WHOLE.

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Day 82: Deconstructing Characters – The Perfectionist

ART by Sylvie Jacobs

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to construct a character as ‘the perfectionist’ – wherein I would get really annoyed and irritated when others would seemingly not live up to my expectations of ‘perfection’ –

not realizing that I was in fact only creating ‘rules’ of perfection based on my own ‘liking’, thus merely constructing systems that would promise to make my existence more ‘satisfying’ within and as self-interest, instead of living SELF-perfection as a practical application of who I am from the starting-point of self-honesty.

I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to see, realize and understand that pursuing perfectionism is in fact self-dishonesty, because that perfectionism is based on bipolar value-judgments and not on self-honesty as the path of getting to know oneself and walking SELF-perfection, not through ‘rules’ but through common sense and self-honesty.

I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to see how irritated and frustrated I would get when something would not go according to my plan of perfectionism – which is a clear indication that I used perfectionism as a ‘value’ of ‘more’/’superior’, and when that wouldn’t succeed I would inevitably go into an experience of ‘less’/’inferior’:

This polarity design is a clear indication that what I was applying as ‘perfectionism’ was merely a construct, a system, and not a living application of SELF in equality and oneness.

I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to see, realize and understand that the character I created as ‘the perfectionist’ has in fact been trapped within that polarity of ‘ups’ and ‘downs’ based on the extent to which I’d be able (or not) to pursue that ‘perfectionism’ –

and thus I was making myself subject to my own ‘rules’ and expectations, instead of living SELF-perfection in self-honesty, not in polarity but in equality and oneness.

I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to see, realize and understand that through existing as such character/personality, I equally kept anyone that ‘agreed’ to ‘validate’ my personality in the same trap, whether that be perceived and accepted ‘inferiority’ or ‘superiority’.

I commit myself to investigating all ways within which I have pursued ‘perfectionism’, so that I may recognize the traps of ‘positive’ and ‘negative’ polarity that I subjected myself to, and re-align any point to that of SELF-perfection in self-honesty – so that I may walk an actual evolution of myself as a living application based on the value of life, and not based on ‘values’ of the system that are all in essence based on the polarity of ‘superiority’/’inferiority’.

I commit myself to stopping my irritation and frustration every time it gets triggered, and to take that moment as a chance to see, realize and understand what expectations I had, what value-judgments I subjected myself to, and what the opposite polarity would be that would ‘promise’ to give me ‘satisfaction’ as opposed to irritation and frustration –

so that I may see and realize that both polarities are an illusion based on mental constructs of the world consciousness, and that I am in fact able to in self-honesty look at the point for what it is and re-align myself in relation to that point so as to walk it within SELF-perfection and set myself free from the trap of polarity that I had created.

Within this I commit myself to flagging the situations within which the character of ‘the perfectionist’ rules, to stop my reign of self-delusion and get myself back to the humbleness of self-honesty.

I commit myself to walking the realization that SELF-perfection is something self can only walk breath by breath, without any rules but the principle of equality and oneness in self-honesty –

and that therefore it is not about being/becoming ‘better’ or ‘worse’, ‘superior’ or ‘inferior’, but about walking the improvement of myself in self-honesty without comparison, competition, or judgment.

I commit myself to showing that perfectionism as defined in this world is a character as personality that supports not life, but the mind of ‘superiority’ and ‘inferiority’ and thus separation.

I commit myself to showing how we have separated ourselves from ourselves through the mental, wherein we exist in constant comparison and competition, always in value-judgments of ‘more than’/’less than’, ‘superior’/’inferior’, ‘strong’/’weak’ etc. –

and that unless we give this polarity design up and stop ourselves from being subject to polarity in all ways, we do not stand a chance of becoming equal to life as directive-principle, because we’ll always be driven from the inside-out by such polarities like puppets on strings.

I commit myself to sharing the common sense that it’s gonna take time and dedication to purify ourselves in self-honesty, because our entire existence is being driven by this invisible system within and without to which we’ve given the authority to drive us and make our decisions for us –

and that therefore the first step towards setting ourselves as life free, is to make the decision to in self-honesty investigate and forgive all points of fear, desire, control, ideas of power, pretense, self-image etc (all polarity desig) that we have accepted and allowed to define and determine who we are and how we are, who we can be and what we can do.

It is suggested that you read the Creation’s Journey to Life blog from the beginning, to see, realize and understand why it’s gonna take at least 7 years to deconstruct into nothingness the patterns that bind us, limit us, trap us – and another 7 years at least to re-create ourselves as the living word, as self-willed individuals that walk the self-determination to restore the value of LIFE as who we really are, so that no more separation, no more abuse, no more exploitation is accepted or allowed, but only LIFE in self-dignity and self-respect –

To from this actualized self-realization and self-purification: walk the transformation outwards into our world and restore the value of life in all our world systems, ensuring dignity and respect for ALL life equally, in all possible ways.

Day 81: Characters in Power-Games | Humanity as World-System

ART by Matti Freeman

The following post is a continuation of the previous two posts:

Character Role Play in Power-Games

Energizer - Character as Mind Consciousness

For further context please read:

Stepping out of Character

CharacterCharting to Discover Real Me

The basic point that is evident within the context of character building, is that the development of characters as personalities in this world is in fact the building of constructs through and as which we try to ‘cope’ in this world –

and that already when a child is born, its environment will anticipate and project concepts amd constructs of definitions and value-judgments, according to which the child will develop systems of mental and emotional reaction-patterns which in turn form characters as personalities through which the child manipulates its interaction within its world to get what it wants.

Within this it is obvious that all characters as personalities on the stage of this world are based in the separation of the being from itself as life, as every child develops its characters from the starting-point of self-interest in an attempt to cope with its environment – and because its environment already functions through manipulation (first of all the ‘reward’ and ‘punishment’ tactics the parents utilize) and presents no practical ways of equal and direct communication that would support the child in developing self-acceptance, self-trust and self-honesty, the child will equally start developing manipulation tactics in its attempt to stand up to the insensibility and inequality it is exposed to.

I commit myself to sharing the common sense that the family is the first environment within which such constructs are developed, and the ‘love’ that is claimed is actually related to the fulfillment of certain roles through developing the respective characters so that the child ‘fits in’ and pleases the family members –

and so within that, the characters and personalities of the child to be serve the maintenance of the patterns the parents/family had already established as personalities within the context of the world system; and within that, such patterns only perpetuate the world as we know it.

I commit myself to showing the common sense that all love of this world is conditional – as it is always about validating one’s own self-created character/personality as self-image. Within this, a child is created to do exactly that, and friends and ‘loved ones’ are selected always from the starting-point of self-validation as self-image.

I commit myself to showing how as characters we not only trap ourselves within constructs that serve ‘values’ other than LIFE (ideas of image, power, status, success etc.) – we also trap everyone around us to remain in THEIR characters/personalities, because as long as personalities ‘validate’ each-other: the ‘harmony’ is maintained and all can continue living the lie of being ‘something’ that is apparently ‘valuable’ when in fact the actual value of life has been abdicated as less important /less valuable.

I commit myself to sharing the common sense that our world as we know it – where everyone plays a role like a character in a movie – is in fact evidence that we have lost touch with life, we have disregarded the value of life and have created ‘value’-constructs that replace life, seen in the fact that in our actual living application we place more value in such fake ‘values’ (ideas of image, power, status, success etc.)

I commit myself to sharing the common sense that the constructs we have created through and as consciousness are always based on polarity and can only exist within and through polarity, seen in for instance the constructs of love/hate, reward/punishment, superiority/inferiority, power/powerlessness etc.

I commit myself to showing the common sense that an existence of characters as personalities is always about the MORE – where we play the game to get more love, more acceptance, more money, more sex, more fame, more satisfaction, more power, more control, more validation, more feeling, a higher kick, more experience, more importance.

I commit myself to showing the common sense that within such equation where each one is always only pursuing self-interest as MORE for ME or MORE of ME – it is no wonder that our world has become what it is today with all of our systems based on one thing: profit, which in itself is based on the concept of MORE for ME.

I commit myself to showing the common sense that the existence of characters is in fact an existence of deception – because if everyone is existing for the MORE, then one will have to find ways to deceive because everybody else also want MORE, but within a construct of polarity: for one to have MORE, others must have LESS.

I commit myself to sharing the common sense that within this we are in fact deceiving ourselves – deceiving life – as we follow fake ‘values’ and ideas of grandeur, yet we only want the GOODIES for ourselves, and thus fail to CARE for LIFE as all as one as equals – and therefore we are deceiving ourselves as life as what we really are, and make ourselves ‘real’ only as characters in a virtual reality that is our mind where we can hide and plot the ways to get MORE to satisfy our addiction for more, which is actually based in our accepted inferiority/fear and the separation of ourselves from ourselves as life.

I commit myself to sharing the common sense that if it weren’t for our accepted inferiority and fear – there would be no need to create ideas and concepts of MORE and to then go into the human RACE of survival where we are constantly comparing ourselves and competing against each-other, against ourselves, against all odds – because in the end everyone bites the dust and returns to the source that is the physical, yet that is too late as consequently at death one has no awareness, because all attention, all awareness, all energy was invested in the inhuman race for MORE as mental concepts and ideas of grandeur while disregarding our physical bodies, our neighbor as ourselves and the earth that feeds us, disregarding all life as a whole and the fact the 2/3 of the world population exist in atrocious conditions, yet we didn’t give a shit, because we were busy following the shit that the consumerism system serves us on shiny golden platters.

I commit myself to showing the common sense that the development of characters as personalities is in fact a malevolent possession of the human body through the mental, where the physical is forced to embody the mental concepts and characters of this world consciousness, in spite of the pain, abuse and deterioration that this results into.

I commit myself to showing the common sense that even though we are born as a physical body without a ‘character’, without personalities and concepts of consciousness – the body in this world is not allowed, not supported to embody an expression of life, but is forced to embody systems of consciousness as coping mechanisms to survive in this world consciousness system; and that characters as personalities are thus but a survival systems within, to cope with the survival system that is this world.

I commit myself to sharing the common sense that as long as we create ourselves as personalities only and identify ourselves with ‘who we are’ as personalities, caring only for the preservation of such constructs: we abdicate our right to life and thus deny ourselves and each-other access to life, which is in fact the physical reality that we all share.

I commit myself to sharing the common sense that characters as personalities are based on mental concepts of ‘grandeur’ – yet seriously: how can we expect of ourselves to be anything ‘more’ in any other reality/realm, if we do not even manage or care to make the best for ALL of this ONE simple reality we all EQUALLY share HERE!

Dienstag, 3. Juli 2012

Day 80: Energizer - The Character as Mind Consciousness

ART by Ann Van Den Broeck

For context please read:
Stepping out of Character
Creating a Character
Character Role Play in Power-Games

I forgive myself that I haven't allowed myself to see, realize and understand that the creation of characters as what we exist as in consciousness: is based in energy.

I forgive myself that I haven't allowed myself to see, realize and understand that energy exists as polarity - and the creation of characters is designed to ensure 'positive energy' for the self-consciousness;
but what is not understood within this, is that for 'positive' energy to exist: the 'negative' energy must exist.

Within this I forgive myself that I haven't allowed myself to see, realize and understand the trap of the bipolar thoughts within the backchat of the 'secret mind' or the bipolar interplay of 'feelings' and 'emotions': all of which is but a product of consciousness - a consciousness that emerged from fear and self-interest and has evolved to more and more separation and abuse, seen in the manifestation of consumerism which has invaded all aspects of life to feed on - consumerism has in fact become what we are; we are the embodiments of consumerism.

I forgive myself that I haven't allowed myself to see, realize and understand that we exist like characters in a movie - the movie taking place in the mind and thus each-one exists in an alternate reality bubble in separation from life as a whole;
and that within that movie, each one is the super-hero set out to 'win' the biggest possible quantity of 'positive' energy as the 'feeling' of winning / attaining / gaining / getting somewhere / becoming something;

and within that, all quality of life is lost, as energy exists within and as the polarity of 'more than'/'less than', and through the constant comparison that has become our shadow everywhere we go, there always seems to be a 'more' to get, to find, to attain -
and so we exist literally within a (human?) race for more, more, more; while we are in fact consuming ourselves, the earth, each-other, just for the momentary 'satisfaction' of the character in the mind, around which everything seems to revolve.

I forgive myself that I haven't allowed myself to see, realize and understand that even within the teachings and paths of 'spirituality', the spirit of life is in duality -

and that what one is in fact doing is giving up certain characters that one has deemed as 'bad' or 'impure' and creating new characters which one perceives as 'good' or 'divine' - not realizing that those too are but characters, designed to 'satisfy' the main character as ego through the 'positive' energy that one gets through thinking and believing that one is somehow 'better'.

I forgive myself that I haven't allowed myself to see, realize and understand that every thought-pattern, every emotion-/feeling-pattern: inevitably creates a character to act upon it to validate it as 'real' - when in fact all thought of consciousness, all energetic experience: is preprogrammed through our 'education' within this world consciousness system from parents, school, media, world-systems - all based on one and the same thing: fear and control.

I forgive myself that I haven't allowed myself to see, realize and understand that a child born into this world has no concept of fear, nor has it got personalities and characters to act out - and that these concepts are passed onto the child by its environment, the child having no other option but to submit to the world consciousness because the expression of the child is not being understood, seen or acknowledged in this world in any way whatsoever -

thus the child is forced to 'learn' the 'language' of this world - a language that, regardless of culture, ethnicity, country, religion, is in fact 'universal': it is the language of polarity, self-deception, manipulation, fear and control; evident within the very first consciousness construct a child is confronted with: 'reward' and 'punishment', which the adult world calls 'love'.

I forgive myself that I haven't allowed myself to see, realize and understand that whenever a want / need / desire arises in the mind: it is the self-interest of the character trying to 'validate' its self-definition, its self-image, its existence.

I forgive myself that I haven't allowed myself to see, realize and understand that a child throwing tantrums is training its character in how to manipulate to get the energy it requires to sustain itself: energy generated through the cycles of thoughts, feelings, emotions which in turn fuel a certain personality/character even more -

and the more the child believes in and follows the thoughts, feelings and emotions that come up: the more it will embody the character as personality -
and so we end up possessed within the mind through characters, personalities, personas, self-images, in a constant comparison and competition for survival - friending and liking and loving only those in our world that somehow 'validate' our character/ego/personality through their character/ego/personality -

and so within what we call 'love' we actually keep each-other enslaved in a virtual reality where we are but characters acting out made-up roles that apparently give us 'value', when in fact we have long abdicated our value as life: in the name of LOVE as self-interest, which is in fact FEAR.

I forgive myself that I haven't allowed myself to see, realize and understand that the body is born into this world in equality and oneness - yet instead of embodying ourselves as who we really are as life, we end up embodying concepts, ideas, images, personalities, characters: based on the fake 'values' we are presented with in this world consciousness.

I forgive myself that I haven't allowed myself to see, realize and understand that it will take courage and humbleness to give up the characters self has become - and be 'nothing'.

I forgive myself that I haven't allowed myself to see, realize and understand that to get real and get to substance as what is substantial within who we are and what this reality is about: one will have to give up and let go of all fakeness, all self-delusion, all concepts and 'knowledge' one has accumulated about 'who one is' and what the world is -
and that within giving up everything, one will realize that nothing is lost, because everything was just lie to begin with.

I forgive myself that I haven't allowed myself to consider that within giving-up everything for nothing, one can in fact be anything yet not be defined by it;

when one is 'something' however, one is limited by that 'something' AS that 'something', and one will do everything to 'defend' and 'protect' that something out of fear of loss, thinking and believing that "if I am not that, I am not worthy" or "if I am not that, I do not exist" or "these thoughts just come up, it must be my nature".

I forgive myself that I haven't allowed myself to see, realize and understand that such thoughts come up 'automatically' through/from the automated character we have authorized as our auto-pilot to drive us, to guide us - while we refuse to see that we have given up our authority to a consciousness system that we didn't even create in awareness, but only in fear:

because a child inevitably comes to a point where it gives-up trying to be understood, trying to express and communicate itself;
it gets to a point where the child realizes it has to submit to the ways of the world, and within that, a point of 'inferiority' is implicitly accepted -
an inferiority that will inevitably push the child to take on the ways of the world and copy the polarity mechanisms of consciousness in an attempt to also become 'superior', because it sees everybody else around it acting as if they were 'superior'.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed a world where we exist as characters driven by the energy of an accepted bipolar consciousness that is rooted in fear, thus spending a lifetime trying to find that 'value' we have lost, yet instead of acknowledging and accepting our value as life, we try and find 'value' through the mind, through comparison, competition, and power-games of 'inferiority'/'superiority' - hence the self-interest, because the ego as consciousness will always try to be a 'winner' of some kind, even if it is through 'negative' ways like self-victimization, self-sabotage, self-abuse; the ego is only interested in one thing: getting its energetic validation through a ‘MORE’ of its self-definition, whatever that may be.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to energize different characters within me through following different set of thought-patterns and emotional-/feeling-patterns, within his feeding the mind and the illusion of the mind that is manifesting the atrocity on earth we call ‘life’ –
instead of accepting myself as life, as equal in self-worth, so that I may stop the power-games within and without and support the emergence of actual LIFE on Earth, as who we all really are behind and beyond the layers as systems we have created to hide behind.

...to be continued

ART by Matti Freeman

Day 79: Character Role Play in Power-Games

ART by Marlen Vargas

For context please read:
Stepping out of Character
Our Evolution is Devolution

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed a world where we exist like characters in a virtual reality - each one in their own movie in the mind where each is one's own super-hero as the main character around which everything revolves.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed a world, a society, where we create different realities separated from each-other through 'values' like money, social class, status, belief-system, culture, race, gender, form - while we disregard the one physical reality we all share within which we all have the same physical needs in terms of what is required to survive on this earth.

I forgive myself that I haven't allowed myself to see, realize and understand that we have created the world consciousness in the image and likeness of our own consciousness - and thus we should not wonder or complain about the inequality and disrespect of our systems, when we are not willing to stop the inequality and disrespect within ourselves and our personal lives.

I forgive myself that I haven't allowed myself to see, realize and understand that we have come to exist within only power-games, both within and without - and that within each power-game, each one thinks of oneself as the main character that must 'win' no matter what, because it's all about "me".

I forgive myself that I haven't allowed myself to see, realize and understand that not only do we make up characters for ourselves to act as, we also perceive everyone else as a character - and so our lives are but virtual realities like movies where one is constantly busy placing all other characters within one's life in such a way that the main character gets the biggest benefit;
which is not different to how the system treats everyone in the name of profit.

I forgive myself that I haven't allowed myself to see that because everyone exist in this way: our world has become what it is as an externalization of what has become 'human nature'.

I forgive myself that I haven't allowed myself to see, realize and understand that also organizations and corporations act as characters in the world, the same goes for politicians and leaders: everyone simply acting out a role, whether self-created or stepped-into, and everyone's vote and sympathy always goes to those characters that promise conditions that will validate the main character, so that we can continue living the lie we call 'life'.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to create different characters as personalities from and as which I act dependent on the situation or the people I am with -
and within this I forgive myself that I haven't allowed myself to see, realize and understand that none of that is real, but merely a make-up utilized to 'fit in' and please others so that in turn others can please "me".

Within this I forgive myself that I haven't allowed myself to see, realize and understand that such existence is based only on self-interest, and as all and each-one are busy pursuing their self-interest only: the world has become what it is today where life is abused in the name of profit, showing that self-interest is placed before LIFE.

I forgive myself that I haven't allowed myself to see, realize and understand that a child born into this world is from the very beginning presented with a play of characters, and even before the child is in a position to assess itself within the context of the world, the parents will form ideas and concepts about what character they'd like their child to be and will accordingly show the child through the bipolar feedback of 'reward' and 'punishment' what character it is supposed to embody.

I forgive myself that I haven't allowed myself to see, realize and understand that a child in this world stands no chance in getting to what is real - unless the parents or custodians re-educate themselves to be able to see through the veils of consciousness and value life as life, effectively preparing themselves to support a new life expression unconditionally.

I forgive myself that I haven't allowed myself to see, realize and understand that consciousness is our creation - yet we refuse to see How we have created it;
and it's gonna take self-honesty, commitment and time to peel the layers of consciousness as the veils that blind us through beliefs, emotion- and thought -patterns, and self-definitions as characters, and dis-cover ourselves as life.

I forgive myself that I haven't allowed myself to acknowledge that, even though our submission to the world consciousness system takes place at a very young age, it takes place through our acceptance and allowance -
and that therefore it is crucial to investigate all our acceptances and allowances to see, realize and understand how we came to form our beliefs, our emotion- and thought-patterns, our self-definitions and self-image, our characters and personality suits, our woes and ways, our view of the world;
for this understanding is the way we'll be able to 'step out of character' and stop the game so that we may LIVE for real and dis-cover who we really are as LIFE.

I forgive myself that I haven't allowed myself to see, realize and understand that creation is not life, but a construct created through manipulation of life -

within this I forgive myself that I haven't allowed myself to see, realize and understand how we've taken the substance of life and created it into energy through manipulation, which can be seen in the fact that our existence is based on the manipulation of energy: the manipulation of money as energy, the manipulation of power as energy, the manipulation of love, sex, attention as energy, the manipulation of earth's resources as energy - all based on the bipolar construct of 'superiority'/'inferiority' within human RACE as competition, and not in the value of life which is equal in all as one.

I forgive myself that I haven't allowed myself to see that within all energetic 'values' and 'experiences': the underlying energy is always FEAR, as fear is what drives everything, it is the starting-point of our existence.

I forgive myself that I haven't allowed myself to consider that without FEAR we would not have the need to separate ourselves from life as all that is here, nor the need to defend and protect ourselves, nor the need to control and dominate our world.

I forgive myself that I haven't allowed myself to see, realize and understand that the creation of characters has its starting-point in fear as accepted inferiority:
where a child is so bombarded with the presentations of a fake world that it comes to a point where the child will see itself as inferior in relation to its world, its environment - and will submit to the systems it is exposed to;

and as the child observes how everyone around them act out different characters in different situations trying to dominate, the child will use that example to go from its accepted inferiority into the opposite-polarity, attempting to form 'superior' characters to deal with its world, its environment, "just like everybody else".

Within this I forgive myself that I haven't allowed myself to see, realize and understand that within that process the child in fact tries to become 'equal' - and that in this world consciousness system as we have accepted and allowed it in our image and likeness: we are all 'equal' as characters; fake personas in personality suits trying to live-out the dream as it is presented in the Hollywood of the mind where one is always in self-interest trying to win the ultimate jackpot of one's mind's fantasy and be the super-hero.

Within this we have become equal in our disregard of life, in our manipulation tactics, in our suppression and denial mechanisms, in our deception of ourselves and each-other just to 'keep believing' in the dream that will bring us the 'ultimate jackpot' in life, in our fear of 'losing' the dream or missing the dream or fear of the dream being taken away from us -

and so we all exist more or less like 'Gollum' on earth, pursuing our 'precious' in complete separation from life, from ourselves, from each-other;
and we refuse to see that within such existence we actually make ourselves unworthy of life, by our own acceptance and allowance, and through our own participation in power-games - be it in our relationships or in the mind as we play out scenes trying to 'win'.

I forgive myself that I haven't allowed myself to see, realize and understand that it's gonna take the giving-up of all 'characters' and all 'dreams' of self-interest to stand equal to life as who we really are, in self-dignity and self-worth, as equals of life.

..to be continued

ART by Anna Brix Thomsen

Sonntag, 1. Juli 2012

Day 78: Our Evolution is Mutation and Devolution - Have a look

for context see my previous blog posts:
One Universe | The Only Real Thing is Consciousness?
Debunking Self-Delusion | Self Forgiveness on Consciousness
and the series:
Relationship Dynamics

the insight from any spiritual quest will inevitably be that: we´ve been searching, yet the more we search the further we get from what we search for: because it´s ourselves.

from this insight emerges the realization that I am Here.

from the realization, acknowledgement and acceptance that I am Here -
the question arises:

where am I going?
how did I get here?
where do I stand?
who am I?
how did I become?

it is the answer to the question of our becoming that is the key to creation. and if I will it, the key to freedom.

here is the paradox:
freedom requires me to will it.
yet how free is my will to will freedom?

a trap within this all has been: that we´ve been asking for and searching for freedom for self only - in self-interest.

somehow we refused to consider: if I am to be free, must not all be free? am I really free if not all are free?

so now we are here.
we realize: our will is not free. our will is trapped. where? how? what is pulling the strings of our decisions, choices, ways?

let´s look at the polarity within this world and we as humanity are existing as -

let´s look at our evolution on an individual level - what becomes of a human being:

the mutation of the mind consciousness
the devolution of the physical body

and the spirit?

the holy spirit of life has become de-man

`demonic´ as the actual nature of the human psyche

`angelic´ as the delusional ideas of grandeur of the human mind

the body trapped within the battle of the two, inspite of the fact that both polarities are but illusion -

yet made real -

the`demonic´ rules within the physical world as a externalization of the secret mind where we always try to get `our way´ (self-interest) and thus manifest hell on earth;
and to not have to face ourselves we dress it up in beutiful words and colors, and it looks `angelic´ but behind the pretended (and often believed) `benevolence´ hides the motive of self-importance that disregards the interest of the whole as life, acting always in self-interest, driven by fear, based in separation from life.

the positive and the negative exist as consciousness and cannot exist without each-other, yet compete for survival and divide the individual that is trapped within the cycles of polarities -
not really moving, rather being driven through the same energetic patterns, which often mutate with time - the personalities may change, but the name of the game is the same.

what is the name of the game? what are the power-games we play, both in our relationships and within ourselves in the mind?

the world is the manifestation of that struggle, those inner bipolar conflicts

they express through our politics, our education systems, our money system, and all externalizations of our nature, which, how long can we deny it, is rather disgusting.

yet fascinatingly enough the most negative message is the most positive message

a global orgasm of energy that is waiting to be directed

a reflection of ourselves

in a world trapped in fear, consumption, greed

ourselves: lost

we´ve been searching

but in self-interest

we´ve been looking

but outside of ourselves

our evolution has proven itself to be a problem

in the past 100-200 years we have been rapidly 'becoming' - yet what have we become?

organic robots hanging on strings of emotions, feelings, thoughts, beliefs, projections -
driven by self-interest in fear, separating the singularity as consciousness from life as the whole

within that, in word, thought and deed we `evolve´ into an enemy to life, an enemy to ourselves, seeking but never finding, and the more desperate the seeking becomes, the more nasty our ways become in how we try and 'get' what we think we are seeking.

god - success - power - control, - satisfaction - validation - revenge - the ultimate jackpot?

what we are in fact seeking is life - is ourselves. nothing and no one can give it to us. we must give it to ourselves, but for that we must give it to everybody else.

that is the chance that the manifested consequences of our evolution as humanity collectively and human beings individually reveal to us.

thus far, our evolution was taking place quite slowly and in unawareness, and within that, slowly but surely exposing the nature of our evil ways rooted in fear and set to self-interest - a slow survival struggle with lots of ups- and downs that were taken for granted.

all the while much blood is shed in the name of this `holy war´.

religion and spirituality failed to show a common-sensible way towards a betterment of what has become 'humanity'.

we have been seeking, but we got lost in following projections of 'grandeur' and 'divinity' as one can see within new age; and lost in the chambers of our secret mind where we've been suppressing and denying the 'evil' nature of ourselves - our fear and self-interest, our abuse of energy -

zombies

not only our relationships have suffered from our addiction to energy - we haven't even been able to have a self-honest relationship with ourselves within ourselves and how we participate in our reality in every moment, such that the body would not have to undergo such traumas, because we do not get to actually CARE for ourselves as life, get to know ourselves as life, and live so that the body flourishes a stable health instead of deteriorating with every breath.

so the time is definitely here.

call it revelations, call it judgment day, call it armageddon, call it the number of the beast, call it the end times -

it is about each and every one of us and all of us together as one humanity, one body, one universe.

we have the chance to take evolution in our own hands. the how is currently being understood like never before, seen in the global arena in a small group of people like you and me -desteni-, that redefine the starting-point of living in self-honesty, in self-forgiveness and through self-corrective living application. we train ourselves in becoming the living solution for ourselves, away from concepts of superiority/inferiority, god/devil,love/fear, power/powerlessness, more/less; stopping the addiction to the positive/negative energy cycles, and substantiating ourselves within the physical reality we all share - which includes every single being we meet and every cell in our bodies.

it's not what we do that defines who we are. who we are shows within what we do. and it´s about who we are within whatever we do.

the starting-point defines everything.

the starting-points determines the outflow.

the starting-point from which we´ve been existing has proven intolerable, an enemy of life, a fake trophy on a podest in the name of which we kill.

it is time to stop our separation, individually and collectively, and find back to substance, back to life, back to living.
stop survival and waging wars - start living and manifesting life as equality, freedom, peace, expression; an equilibrium in oneness with all.

a global change will require each and every one of us - standing also for those that are not able to stand for themselves: the animals, nature, the starving, the children, the exploited.

as consciousness we´ll keep on fighting trying to win, to be right, to be validated, to find, to ascend, to be enlightened

as life we will stop the game, and stand as self-willed equals to `enlighten´ our existence as a whole.

we have no choice as life but to stand for ALL LIFE to be ONE - and for LIFE to be ONE all abuse and exploitation must stop; all polarity and thehiearchies deriving therefrom must stop; all greed and self-interest must be transformed to expression worthy of life that are lived in the interest of life.

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Day 77: Debunking Self-Delusion | Self Forgiveness on Consciousness

ART by Anna Brix Thomsen

For context read my previous blog
One Universe | The Only Real Thing is Consciousness?
and the series:
Stopping the Mind in the Flesh - Part 1
Stopping the Mind in the Flesh - Part 2
Stopping the Mind in the Flesh - Part 3

I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to see, realize and understand that believing in consciousness as something profound is but another belief, yet another projection through which I separate myself from myself and keep myself seeking, hoping, waiting – lost in delusions of ´grandeur´ while in my actual living-application I do not take the responsibility to change the patterns of my existence that manifest the world as we know it.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that consciousness is the only real thing – not realizing that the reason I would follow such belief is the want / need / desire to ‘make real’ my own self-interest and my delusions of grandeur.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to deify consciousness, not considering the obvious fact that we fail to understand consciousness because we fail to self-honestly look at our existence and take self-responsibility.

I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to see and acknowledge that the accepted world consciousness which we have manifested in our image and likeness through who we are as consciousness: has only brought forth devastation and destruction.

I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to see, realize and understand that consciousness as what we exist as: is based in fear and thus only promotes self-interest and the separation of life in the name of self-interest.

I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to see, realize and understand that if consciousness was life, it would function and act in ways that support life.

I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to see, realize and understand the obvious common sense that consciousness is programmable and that through understanding the program/pattern within and as ourselves and our world, we can in fact re-program our existence to be something that will actually support life.

I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to see, realize and understand that consciousness has been used by the big brothers in the world to support our delusion and to impose control – out of fear; and that fear has further been used to justify control and to make sure that everything is driven by fear and human beings are kept within the conflict of polarities, within and without, never questioning the system, never questioning the acceptances and allowances of self, never questioning the filters of perception used to define the world and the laws we make to govern us.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to believe and follow the delusions of grandeur presented to me on a golden platter by religions, spirituality, science, the media – because I wanted to have ‘hope’ and ´feel positive´.

Within this I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to abdicate my responsibility to systems of this world to guide me – in spite of the evidence in the world that our systems are not guiding us to the benefit of life, but only to the benefit of profit, and that that is a characteristic of our consciousness as we have accepted and allowed it.

I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to see, realize and understand that consciousness functions on stimuli-response patterns and that the more a pattern is repeated, the stronger it gets until it evolves its own consciousness – which is why we have no self-willed human beings in this world but only puppets on strings acting-out conditioned patterns in self-righteousness, which is what consciousness is.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to deify consciousness, not realizing I am only doing so to not have to look within myself and see what I have accepted and allowed of consciousness as me to become – and what the consequences are for existence as a whole.

I commit myself to sharing the common sense that in a world of self-righteous singularities: we are only heading to self-destruction, creating more and more friction, abuse, exploitation, and more deception tactics to cover it all up with.

I commit myself to sharing the common sense that before we make up concepts and beliefs about what consciousness is – concepts and beliefs designed to ‘make everything seem okay’ through promises and ´hope´ while we sit and wait for the ´miracle´ –
we should rather get to know what consciousness is through self-honest observation of our inner and outer reality, investigate cause and effect and debunk the patterns we exist as, within and without, so that we may understand how we came to be what we are today and thus how to change our patterns to such that will actually support life, as all as one as equals.

I commit myself to showing that consciousness as what we exist as and what this world exists as: is based in fear and self-righteousness, hence the consequences of exploitation, abuse and deception in the name of profit as self-interest.

I commit myself to showing that we as consciousness exist in separation from the actuality of reality, otherwise we would in self-will direct ourselves in ways that would dignify our reality to the benefit of life.

I commit myself to sharing the common sense that consciousness is not life, seen not only in the fact that consciousness does not act in the interest of life, but also in the fact that at death the body amalgamates with the physical and is not ‘lost’, while all concepts, ideas, memories, self-definitions as consciousness are ‘lost’ -
and yet we leave behind the legacy of our acceptances and allowances, our denials and delusions, that are passed on from generation to generation, and thus our ´evil ways´ continue to exist within and as a system which, as we can see, is an atrocity.

I commit myself to sharing the common sense that consciousness in fact consists of the veils behind which we hide to not have to face the actuality of reality, face ourselves, and take responsibility for life.

I commit myself to sharing the common sense that regardless what we believe, the actuality of reality is not influenced by belief – and if the human would vanish from the face of the earth, the physical universe would not only continue existing, it would in fact restore its equilibrium and flourish.

I commit myself to sharing the common sense that the only thing standing in the way of manifesting an existence in equilibrium: is the consciousness we have accepted and allowed ourselves and our world to be subject to – the consciousness through which we have come to more and more separation, more and more fear, more and more abuse in the name of self-interest.

I commit myself to exposing the deception of the world’s systems such as religions, spirituality, education, the money-system, media – and that the only reason the world systems are able to deceive and control the human being, is because the human being is gullible to promises of ´hope´ and ´grandeur´ and willing to buy into anything that allows it to for a moment forget about its fear.

I commit myself to sharing the common sense that the only ‘ascension’ possible in the actuality of reality is for the human being to stop its fear, stop its delusions, stop the consciousness of self-interest, and stand equal to life, taking self-responsibility to reprogram itself and reform its existence into dignity as life.

I commit myself to sharing the common sense that the only principle that will ensure equilibrium as harmony and dignity for all life: is the principle of equality and oneness, based on the value of life;
as anything else would require polarity, thus hierachies, thus fear and control, thus inequality and exploitation, abuse and deception - as we ca clearly see throughout the history of mankind.

I commit myself to showing that we are at a point in our ´evolution´ where we are able, if we WILL, to take the course of matters in our hands, and re-direct our existence from self-destruction and devolution into actual evolution as life in dignity and actual freedom - and that the equal money system and the re-education processes we present at desteni are the first steps towards such re-creation in self-honesty and self-responsibility.

ART by Matti Freeman

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